Embracing Spiritual Anarchy
When I was a kid, The first thing I wanted to be when I grew up was a priest. I was told "no" and my spiritual journey has basically gone from there.
I didn't know it at the time, but that was the best No I would probably ever receive. Looking back, I think it's a path I probably would have stuck with, and would have been pretty good at. That might sound weird coming from someone who calls themselves a Witch now, but it's likely I would have never gotten into the occult or "The Spooky Path" if I had been allowed to walk down the rightest of the right handed paths.
When I was a kid, I didn't know what I was really desiring was to be part of a ruling spiritual class, a gatekeeper between the people and the the divine. Now that this path is far away from me and inaccessible, I'm happy that I was handed the path of spiritual anarchy.
Anarchy, like love, is a powerfully misunderstood word and concept. Often meant to mean "chaos," anarchy really means a system without hierarchy, where all people have equal power, and no one is master over another. Taken literally, it means "without bosses."
Truly radical magic is anarchic. As a Witch, nothing but myself can hold me back from my birthright of magic, and no one stands between me and God. I don't have to wait around to see if there is a Heaven or Hell, I can go up and knock on the door myself and see if anyone is home.
Embracing spiritual anarchy means recognizing not only my equality to other people, but extending that equality to all living things, to the spirits, to the gods. I may be different from other beings, but am not necessarily "better" or "worse." This is just as profoundly humbling as it is empowering.
For centuries, we in the West, women and disenfranchised groups especially, have been cut off from direct, anarchic spirituality. We are told we must constantly go through institutions and individuals anointed by those institutions in order to live a spiritual life. This is wrong, and we must get over this mindset.
Of course, I have to put the caveat here that you should do whatever feels best for you. If you like your spiritual path where you go to a priest, or rabbi, or preferred spiritual leader with your problems. If you have looked around the church, and decided that the pew is really the best seat for you, I'm not here to tell you not to take it. But if it is not, don't be afraid to walk up to the altar and preach a little anarchy.